Wednesday, January 4, 2012

"Daunting But Necessary"


During The Past Few Days I've Been Busy With The Daunting Task Of Packing Up My Mother's Belongings.  Lovingly I Separated, Folded And Left Tear Stains On Beloved Possessions That Will Later Travel To Siblings And Friends.


I Cannot Begin To Express The Sorrow I Experienced While Completing This Last Bit Of Unfinished Business.  I Remember Several Times During The Process ~ Stopping To Pray For The Strength To Continue.


It Was Always My Mother's Wish For Me That I Eventually Turn Her Room Into A Working Space For Myself, And As Much As It Seemed A Perfect Plan Upon Initial Discussion ~ It Was Terribly Difficult To Follow Through.

This Space Consists Of 850 Sq Feet And Once I'm Totally Moved In, I'll Definitely Have More Elbow Room.  Still Have The Final Step Of Taking Mama's Bed Apart ~ I've Been Putting It Off Until The Very Last Moment.  Friends, Please Pray For Me.  I'm Trying So Hard To Recover.  I Just Miss My Mama So Much. 

Love2UAll,
Terri

8 comments:

Jodi Ulschmid said...

Hugs to you Terri! I feel so bad for the pain you are having to go through. I bet your mother will be happy watching you create your little heart out in that space though! I'll pray that your heart and mind will be at peace real soon. ♥

Cathy Bueti said...

Oh Terri, I feel for you my dear. My heart goes out to you as you make this transition and continue to heal. The pain at times seems so very great that you feel like you cannot keep going. Somehow, though we find the courage from deep within ourselves that we didnt even know was there.

One step at a time . . . its all we can do at times like these

xo

Createology said...

Strength and courage will guide you in this most difficult time. Your beautiful art will be exactly what your mother wants you to create in this space. Healing Hugs Dear...

Jan said...

I'm so sorry you have to re-purpose your sweet Mama's space. I know just how hard it is to face that kind of change. When all is said and done I have no doubt it will be a beautiful space for you to create in, and if you are lucky, to feel her presence as well. Hugs to you!

priti.lisa said...

She will be whispering in your ear the whole time you paint, I'll bet.
I can't find the words to say...but, they wouldn't change anything anyway. I'll just keep you in my prayers and believe you come out on the other side of grief when it's time.
Love to you, my friend. It is a new year already, can you believe it?

Tanna at The Brick Street Bungalow said...

{{{{HUGS}}}} Prayers for you, dearest Terri... There is nothing I could say to ease your heart... God can though. One moment at a time... at your speed and God's speed. blessings ~ tanna

Artistic Accents by Darla said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mother too and I do believe they are with us in so many things we create :) It's the love they showed us and we share it too. I wish you peace and comfort♥Happy New Year

Anna said...

Dear Terri, Thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving such a sweet comment. I am so sad to read back and see that you recently lost your mother. My heart ahes for you. I still have my mother and I am not sure how one can "do life" without their mother. As a child I sat my my mother as she painted into the night. I love visiting her in N Ga and painting with her in her studio. I hope you can paint and enjoy the place I know she loved. One day at a time..... its all grace.