Thursday, April 12, 2012

Luke 12:48

"For Unto Whomsoever Much Is Given ~ Of Him Shall Be Much Required."

Friends, I've Been Struggling So Very Much These Days.  This Was The First "Easter" Spent Without My Mama, And Memories Of Her Hit Me First Thing In The Morning And The Last Thing At Night.   Dear Lord In Heaven, I Long For Her With All My Heart And Soul.

I Sincerely Thought "Thanksgiving" And "Christmas" Were Perhaps The Saddest Celebrations Since Her Passing ~ But As It Turns Out ~ Easter Was Somehow The Most Challenging.

Maybe It's Because "Jesus" Rose Again Following His Departure From This Earth.  Maybe It's Because In Some Strange And Senseless Way, I've Kept Hoping I'm Living A Dream Right Now.  That My Mama Would Miraculously Be Allowed To Walk Back Into My World.  And In That Moment ~ Reach Out And Hug Me Like She Did Countless Times In Our Days Together.  

But It's Not To Be.  Not Today.  Not Tomorrow.   I Think For The First Time I'm Fully Realizing My Mama Will Not Rise Again...She Won't Be Coming Back.

I Need To Confess That I Know In The Deepest Parts Of My Spirit, That I've Been Blessed Beyond Imagination During My Time Here On Earth.  Please Believe Me When I Tell You That I Fully Acknowledge That God Has Gifted Me With More Than I Ever Could Have Hoped For.

But Within The Gift Lies Also The Debt.  I Was Reminded This Morning That When So Much Is Given, Much Is Expected.



Cathy Bueti said...

Awww, Terri, although I have not lost my mother as you know I do know how you feel. It is so difficult and yes you have that moment when reality starts to hit and you realize that they are not coming back.

Sending you a big HUG!! I feel for you as you continue to mourn this loss and walk this road on your journey. What a sweet picture of your mom . . . I see you in her smiling face.


Rebecca said...

Dear Sweet Terri...

The most moving post I've read in a long, long time. I know your Momma is up in heaven loving and missing you and counting the days when you'll be together again.

Blessings to you today. I understand your heart. My father is still with me...but yet he is gone.

Love, Rebecca

Jennifer @ Studio JRU said...

Oh Terri... tearing up for your broken heart. Wishing I could reach out and give you a big-ol hug. Praying you feel HIS arms around you during this most difficult time.

Isabel said...

Im so sorry and I know how you feel, sending hugs to you.

JENNIFER said...

I'm very sorry for your loss and ny heart goes out to you...hugs Jennifer

Tanna at The Brick Street Bungalow said...

I am so very sorry that your heart is so sad, Terri. Sending you big hugs and heartfelt prayers... tanna

Diana said...

I'm so sorry, dear Terri...

Blessings to you.